Opps. Internet Missing.

Sorry Ive been gone. My internet was being fixed and its been stressful at school lately.

Good news is, I have all my classes online (except my Electrocardiography) online.
For Electro, I have to do labs in class so I have to be there. I might do my spanish
in person too.

Ive also lost weight. Im now 114 according to the scale.
And I was there when my home team CLINCHED the National Leauge title,
so were heading to the post season.  :))


So, I'll update soon when I find my pictures again.

Cheer//Day Three//9-15-10

Intake:

Morning- milk with nesquick (175)

Lunch- small cheese fry from Gold Star (350)

Dinner- 4 bites of pasta (?)

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When I was younger (but sadly in the age of "baby fat" dissappering...slowly) I was a 4th grade cheerleader.

I loved it but I was in that rebel sort of phase and I quit after 4 months.

When I entered high school, I was still a bit of a rebel but I longed to do cheer again after my best friend did it and I thought it was cool that a tall italian girl with size 4 gauges and a lip and nose stud and a tattoo on her lower back could do this without being labeled as a freak.

I signed up my junior year but bailed after my try out when one of the girls said "Shes a bit pudgy...shes small and thin but her hips are too wide". So I left and just did dance with the local dance team.

I vowed when I was small again, I'd do cheer or dance for college. I would love to do burlesque of pole dancing but Im not sure how the BF would feel about it.

Tattooed//Day Two// 9-14-10

Intake:

8AM- One glass of D milk with Nesquick (260)

Lunch- half a burger wrapped in lettuce with pickles(175)

Dinner-small fry and cherry coke. (300)

Dessert- muffin (150)

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I couldnt work out last night since I passed out.  Instead I thought of tattoo designs (as you can see).

Im a huge tattoo fan. Body peircings too. I have so many planned but with the parents and the BF,

I gotta be careful about it. They dont care about peircings but tats, thats soft ground.

What I Have:

Peircings: 3 ear in each ear lobe

               1 right Helix (lower cartilige)

               Navel

Tattoos: Star on ankle (self done..basically a scar now)

Leana Silver//Day One//9-13-10

I adore this girl.

A former adult model,

I love this girl for her drop dead smile

And her perky attitude.

Isnt she adorable!

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INTAKE:

Morning:

          1/2 a thing of flat Mt. Dew (im guessing 200 cals)

              2 Diet pepsis (0 cals)

              1/2 a Budget Gourment pasta bowl (about 240 cals out of 290)

Afternoon/Night:

           Diet Pepsi (0 cals)

              Veggies (if we have any at the house)

              100 Calorie Pop Tart crisps

              1 slice of white bread (60 cals)

Class Snack(s):

              1 diet pepsi

             

UPDATE: Well I gave blood today. Passed out. They changed the weight I guess. For a 5 foot 2, 19 year old female you have to be 129 pounds.

              

Introduce Yourself...

Name: Nikki
Age: 19
Location: USA; Ohio
Status: Taken
Current Weight: 115 pounds.
Goal Weight: 100 pounds
Major Goal: 95 pounds
Reason: So I dont have to worry if
my boyfriend can pick me up or not.
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What is your ED?
-Anorexia and a bit of Pica.

Methods?
-Mostly calorie intake and over exercising. I use laxitives too but very rarely.

What made you devolpe an ED?
-Mostly kids from school when I was younger. My dad also. All I hear from him
to my mom is "you havent lost weight since Nikki was born". He also tells me
"If you dont stop eatting that you'll be fat and lazy". My sister has always been thin
and pretty. Im sick of being the oldest but the plainest.

Does your BF know about your disorder?
-I have told him. I cried and couldnt speak so I wrote it down. He was very upset and cried himself.
He told me I was always beautiful. I believe him but I wanna feel it myself.

Do your parents?
-I think but I think its scary to think their oldest child has something wrong with her.